cabo part deaux

all star

so proud of our j man. loved seeing him renew his love of baseball. amazed by his pitching ability. impressed by his selection to the area all star team. enjoyed every play of every inning of every game this season. can't wait for the next one!

14

14 years of marriage. 14 years of being my best friend (truly 18...), my defender, my cheerleader, my spiritual leader and partner, my greatest love, my lay by the beach and do nothing companion, my ally against the rebels (I mean children), my favorite hug and the only shoulder I want to cry on. I hope for many more than 14 years with you. 

love

I love how sweet abby is...to us, to hud...and how she tries to be with j. i love that she need a 'hit' from her blank before she has to leave it behind. i love her happiness, and how easily she makes friends and tries to include everyone. just. love. her. 

love my big hud. big heart. big kisses. big hugs. big laughs. big sweet, kind boy. growing up way to fast. 

love my jman. love his laugh. love his creativity and intelligence. love his passion for baseball. love his choices to let "haters hate". really love the unexpected hugs and love yous. my boy...love

anxiety. hate it.

*i'm tired of being so worried, so stressed, so unsure of too many things in my life that i feel like i'm missing the little, awesome, meaningful moments happening all the time in my home. 

*i'm terrified of not finding a job. 

*i'm so incredibly angry that i have to be terrified of not finding a job. 

*the disorganization of my home has reached the point of causing complete shut down for me. i've got to find motivation and get some serious purging done. 

*i want to be working this summer on classroom things...and i can't. that stresses me out. 

*i want this summer to be fun but intentional for my kids and my family. i am overwhelmed with making that happen. 

Lord, I need peace. I'm honestly at the point that I can't find the words I need You to hear, but I know You know them anyway. I am truly grateful for my blessed life. Work in me...give me strength to fight. Amen. 

Maybe the blog isn't dead

Man. 2013...not my favorite year so far. Lots of too personal for blog land stuff but we'll make it through. It's in God's hands. And obviously we are needing some lessons in faith, patience, strength...He's really got a list for us! Since maybe 2 people used to read this anyway, I consider it more of a journal anyway. And if it gets a couple more prayers sent up to the big guy, even better. So tonight I'm writing a random combination of stuff we are praying about and a sort of bucket list/goals I have for myself. 

*a new teaching job. That The Lord will put me in a school where my passion, confidence, excitement and self esteem will be renewed. Where my hard work, and teaching will be recognized and appreciated. 

*for a much more peaceful home. Sparing details...just leave it as "less yelly"

*to make the right decision about sweet Tucker. Congestive heart failure. Aggressive cancer. Dogs rock. And when they age, it sucks. 

*some definite answers/plans for our future home. 

*to be lifted out of the low place I find myself in and peace from the anxiety that seems to have a strong grip on my mind and heart. 

Ok-overwhelmed now. Bucket list will have to wait. 

christmas 2012

 hey! sometimes i have too many things in the fire, too many balls in the air, more on my mind than any med can handle...you know you've been there! so here it is! my attempt at multitasking gone wrong. big whoop.

ihese sweet dogs are 10 years apart, but the are besties for sure. izzy has taken her normal spot and she doesn't move from it much. i hope that she finds comfort when we all will need to do the same here in the near future. tucker is an awesome dog. awesome. it just sucks they have to leave after a while. hope it's not too soon.

 sprinkles arrived with a note from santa. a pinterest find i likes because it made th elf more interactive with the kids and they practiced grace when sprinkles was naughty.  still had to move him though, dang it. :)

 random...i know. that's me. a sweet friend sent this to me one morning and i needed the laugh. and quite frankly the cut to the chase advice. whew! thanks jen!

 boy is ballin next year. never leaves his hands.

 this hearbreaking sweetness was a night we didn't think he would make it through. sweet boys.

 surprise visit from aunt sherry!!!! the kids were stoked!

 so the rest are a hodge podge of family gatherings big and small, much desired gifts being opened, and a girls dinner with some wylie friends.

merry christmas 2012